My name is Rachel.
I have a large family.
We have been married for 25 years and gave birth to 11 children ranging from 24 to 4 years old.
Two of our daughters are already married, one is a mother to a beautiful baby girl, the other is expecting a baby in December.
We have lived in several different countries over the course of our lives, starting before we were married.
My American born husband was raised in a military family who lived in Japan, Germany and the UK (the UK – before he was born) as well as various states of the US.
Me – born in France and moved to Israel at the age of 16, where met my husband at the age of 19.
We both lived in Israel, the US, Israel again, TWICE.
Each time for different reasons: schooling, business, or a combination of both.
(I don´t want to bore my readers).
We have the possibility many don´t have: we operate an online business that requires limited presence in the US. So we are very lucky to be able to move from one country to another. All we need is to get organized and save some $$$ and take a plane – or two – or three.
We spent a year in South America two years ago and just , well, loved it! The only reasons we came back was personal familial reasons.
So we just spent a year in the US, after spending a year in Peru and Paraguay and the contrast was chocking. For me this year was a combination of frenzy, frustration, running after my tail, and an overwhelming sense of being put into the spin cycle of my washing machine.
I surprised myself with the vehemence and conviction of my voice as I was announcing to my mother our decision of returning to live in South America.
I REFUSE TO CONTINUE TO LIVE LIKE THIS!!!
No time for myself or my children, running around all day long, being exhausted day in day out, and most poignantly: not knowing my own children.
Yes! On an average day we speak to our children maybe 10 minutes and it is all superficial talking about homework or cleaning their room, or discipline.
I feel the frustration of being here physically but completely in another universe mentally, emotionally and spiritually. The errands, shopping, driving, phone calls, crisis and interruptions are all taking over my life and pushing me away from what I really want: a simple life with my husband and children.
I am not asking for luxuries,fancy outings, and polished looks.
All I want is time with my children, in order to connect with them and know who they are. I also want them to know that I am here for them and love them more than anyone else (besides their father -of course). I resent the distractions and the frenzy who transport me to another reality.
I am tired of feeling so frustrated.
So it all brings us to our decision to move back to South Amerca, homeschooling and a healthy diet of fresh vegetables, fruits, chicken and eggs. Fresh breads and cakes. And all the naturally good stuff.